Full Term & Extremely Whiny.

I may or may not officially be over being pregnant. (Hint: I totally and most certainly am).

I have always consistently known that I'd miss feeling his movements. And that I'll miss the general maternal feelings of protecting and carrying and nurturing my baby. However, I'm really just ready to have my own body back and ready to not experience the daily ailments I've grown used to anymore. I'm just over it all. For one thing, I hate that getting in and out of bed is a painful experience every single time due to my sciatic nerve. As a matter of fact, just recently my sciatic nerve started acting up in a different way, and it's pretty unbearable at times. Definitely not something I can deal with for another two weeks. I'll tell you what, when I get that sweet, delicious epidural, I'll be so goddamn happy to not have to feel that sciatic fucking nerve acting up for several hours.

I seriously hope Gavin comes early, just so I can start getting back to normal. Of course I'll have healing and a new round of bodily experiences to deal with, but that will fade in a few weeks. Some things I've dealt with during pregnancy have effected me almost the entire time I've been knocked up. Seriously, if Gavin came sometime next week, that'd be perfect for me. Or even just anytime after my birthday, which is the 16th.

This week begins my weekly OB appointments. They've gotten more and more closely spaced apart, and now shit starts getting serious. From what I understand, I will probably start getting checked for dilation at this point too. Based on some of the pains and discomforts I've been feeling since 36 weeks, I almost expect to be at least 1cm. But then again, that'd be a long time for me to be dilated and nothing else be going on. I'm still yet to experience, but on standby for any Braxton Hicks contractions, bloody show or anything else that would indicate onset of labor. So yeah. We'll see when he starts showing he's on his way. Other than dropping at 36 weeks, Gavin is still sitting pretty tight. And I'm over it.