DEPLOYMENT #2.. not baby #2. oh my god. haha. I felt the need to clarify.
It's summer and I'm facing one of the biggest challenges I've ever faced in my life. Nick is deploying VERY soon and Gavin and I will be missing him for 7 long months. It's so incredibly difficult to even think about. Yes, we did a deployment in 2010, but it was just us two. No baby to think about that will miss his father, and be missed by him even more. I'm glad Gavin is so little, he won't remember his daddy being away from him. If our current plans don't change, this will be our last deployment.
Those are a couple slightly comforting thoughts I'll have to work with. Otherwise I'm just a little terrified. Motherhood is difficult, plain and simple. I'd have collapsed into a giant heap of stress, fail and tears a loooong time ago if I didn't have help from family. Sometimes that need for a short break is so strong, I don't feel like I can go another day. So with Nick leaving, it's going to be so much more difficult on a daily basis. I can't be in Maryland the entire 7 months, though I am planning to be there a lot. I'm trying to work out if I can stay in Maryland for several weeks at a time, though I have the cats to consider. My mom has a dog so I can't just bring them there with me when I go. No matter what, I'm going to have to rely heavily on the wonderful friends I have when I can't be with my family. Like for instance, I have a few miscellaneous doctor's appointments I'll need to schedule this summer and fall. You can't bring children without someone to supervise, so I'll have to try to find people to sit with Gavin while I get these things done.
Deployment is such a challenging, stressful experience. Nick and I have done it before; it didn't defeat us then and it won't defeat us this time. I hope one day Gavin is proud of his parents for what they did for him and our family. Just gotta do our best to be strong for him!
It's summer and I'm facing one of the biggest challenges I've ever faced in my life. Nick is deploying VERY soon and Gavin and I will be missing him for 7 long months. It's so incredibly difficult to even think about. Yes, we did a deployment in 2010, but it was just us two. No baby to think about that will miss his father, and be missed by him even more. I'm glad Gavin is so little, he won't remember his daddy being away from him. If our current plans don't change, this will be our last deployment.
Those are a couple slightly comforting thoughts I'll have to work with. Otherwise I'm just a little terrified. Motherhood is difficult, plain and simple. I'd have collapsed into a giant heap of stress, fail and tears a loooong time ago if I didn't have help from family. Sometimes that need for a short break is so strong, I don't feel like I can go another day. So with Nick leaving, it's going to be so much more difficult on a daily basis. I can't be in Maryland the entire 7 months, though I am planning to be there a lot. I'm trying to work out if I can stay in Maryland for several weeks at a time, though I have the cats to consider. My mom has a dog so I can't just bring them there with me when I go. No matter what, I'm going to have to rely heavily on the wonderful friends I have when I can't be with my family. Like for instance, I have a few miscellaneous doctor's appointments I'll need to schedule this summer and fall. You can't bring children without someone to supervise, so I'll have to try to find people to sit with Gavin while I get these things done.
Deployment is such a challenging, stressful experience. Nick and I have done it before; it didn't defeat us then and it won't defeat us this time. I hope one day Gavin is proud of his parents for what they did for him and our family. Just gotta do our best to be strong for him!
P.S.
On the fitness front, I'd like to update that I'm doing awesome. I do 45 minutes or more of cardio, and have a calorie goal of about 400 per workout. I've got the resistance on the elliptical up to anywhere between 10-12. I haven't been near a scale to see what pounds I may have lost, but I think I'm making some progress. A couple weeks ago, I got the biggest boost ever when curiosity led me to try on some pre-pregnancy jeans, and by god they FIT. Like, I can button them and not be super uncomfortable. SO exciting! I decided to measure my progress like this. I'll know I'm losing weight as all my clothes begin to fit better again, haha.
You can do this!!! Think of all the advantages you have over me. When my husband deployed for the second time Sawyer was under 3 months and I was active duty, had no family near me and lost more than half my friends here bc they didn't understand motherhood. You are a car ride away from your family and you have Gavin to keep yourself busy. The main thing to get through it is to make sure you make time for yourself!! If that includes going out to dinner once a week with Gavin or hitting up the movies, it works! Because it gives you something to look forward too instead of making the deployment stretch seem sooo long. And you do need time to yourself, it will make you feel better too! If you need any help or advice feel free to message me anytime!!
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