I'm feeling really sappy a lot of the time these days. I'm pretty much a huge cheeseball and Nick and I tease back and forth as he rolls his eyes and pretends to not be into it, while I overact with the romantics and cartoonishly fawn over him.
But in all seriousness, I'm so happy lately about he and I, and the way our lives have come together and the things we've achieved as a couple, and as a new family.
I don't think I could be more in love with him now that he and I are starting a family together and we're having our own child together.
Sometimes it still blows my mind that I ended up with him; for several years I considered him "the one that got away", and I was more than happy to pick up with him again when we reconnected in 2007. Who would've thought we still wanted all those crazy things we talked about as high school kids, like marriage?
April 2002.
Who'da thought these kids would be welcoming a son,
10 years from the moment of this photograph?
Who knew first loves could have actually gotten it right the first time?
As I stopped to proofread this entry so far, with my hands feeling Gavin kicking away, I'm just happy. I'm so thankful Nick and I found each other through so many almost-miss circumstances all those years ago, I'm so glad all my other relationships weren't right for me, I'm so glad we just started hanging out a little bit near the end of 2007 and decided we wanted to try this out again.
And though I don't know the exact occasion that lead to our Gavin nugget being created, I'm really happy it did and that Nick is the person it happened with. It makes me all the more glad I was smart and sensible as a teenager, and never had any other pregnancy before this one to taint how incredible this time in my life is.
Ok, I know. I'm super cheesy and a total fag. I can't help it. A friend who is also pregnant right now asked me early on if I'd had all the mega-sappy feelings yet, and I totally see what she was getting at now. I mean, I've always felt super lovey and affectionate towards Nick, it's just incredible how a child multiplies it by 1000. I love that shit head<3
Gavin is one lucky little boy to be entering the world with a couple that is mature and ready. The world is as it should be.
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