Obstacles.

I find myself facing an entirely new issue in life. Of course it's something I expected, but the internal conflicts I'm facing are certainly challenging nonetheless, and now I'm gonna have to learn to deal with it.

The Navy Reserve has always offered me all kinds of opportunities, many I've not been able to take and some I have. (I'll never forget the 2 month NCIS orders in Italy in Summer 2009 I had to pass up. UGH!) So since I graduated college, I've been pumped to be able to have the chance to take on more duties. However....

Bean Sprout. 

I can only be authorized to be on orders until I'm 32 weeks along, which is January. I'm also factoring in the upcoming winter holidays and such. This leaves me not able to do much of anything after mid-December. This is definitely bumming me out, since I love to keep busy, love to be working and with my new bundle of baby, I won't be able to do this really. Of course baby will keep me busy, duh, but that won't help my professional development.

I'm just such an ambitious person that the thought of sitting at home for too long sounds not very exciting at all. I just got an e-mail from one of my Chiefs about doing recruiter duty for 2 years, with the option to extend for 3 more. This sounds really challenging, yet kind of fun. I could definitely get into doing this job. But... le sigh. I told Chief to keep me posted about opportunities next year. So who knows. While I unfortunately can't get myself back into the workforce right now, I definitely want to. I only have about another week and a half of work til I'm done for awhile. I have a potential 2 weeks in November, then nothing else on my horizon til after the Sprout is born.

I just hope being a stay-at-home mommy keeps me satisfied for awhile. As I've gotten older, I never thought I would be satisfied in that lifestyle. My drive has obviously helped me achieve a lot and I hate to bring myself to a halt, even if it's for family. We'll see how I feel in Feb/March. I'm so excited to have my little stinky-butt baby here, but I also like making money.

But like I said. We'll see.